I've never met a "real' ex-atheist. No doubt your first thought (if you're theist) is that I'm in denial. But no, I am pretty certain that I'm not, and I'll tell you why with a few more memorable examples.
To be clear I am not saying it's impossible
for an atheist to change. I'm saying that I've never seen it happen, and
further, a lot of people who think they were once atheist were not.
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One excellent illustration of this is a man I encountered who 'chose to be an atheist for two weeks', to see what it was like. I can't imagine that needs explanation, but " you cannot choose whether or not you believe in a god. You can choose to either investigate theology, or blindly accept it, but you will then be subject to whatever you personally conclude. This fellow actually walked into a gathering of atheists and proceeded to argue with them that he'd been an atheist. Now, he's a very smart man in general; a teacher, highly literate, but he was so off base on this one it was truly uncomfortable. He explained that he'd spent two weeks living without god. No church, no praying, etc. He actually convinced himself that meant he was atheist for two weeks, and therefore he understood atheism in its entirety and was fully prepared to show us the errors of our ways.
Many more simply don't understand what "atheist' means. They think if they didn't attend church for a while or think about religion, they were atheist. Or, if they went through a bad spell, (did "bad things' like stealing, etc) they were atheist during that time - if they got 'angry' with god for not giving them what they wanted, they were atheist during that time. No, they were not. They were angry or lapsed or carefree theists. Upon deeper conversation, though, it always comes to the point that they never thought that no god exists, they just weren't actively worshipping one (or more). And consider - how is it possible to be angry with something you don't think exists?
Finally, a university PhD professor who claimed he was a "Christian-Atheist'. On the surface, it appeared he didn't believe in gods but chose to embrace the more positive tenets of Christianity - a best of both worlds situation, thus, he coined his christian-atheist persona. I got to know him pretty well. It turned out to be pure baloney a way to sexually conquer his young female students by making himself 'fascinating'. (Oh ethics!) Hereally didn't want to believe, because the intellectual side of him told him it was nonsense, but he couldn't stop believing; likewise, he claimed his morality was Christian - seducing one's students isn't Christian, and it's not atheist, either. It's immoral and unethical, plain and simple. He was embarassed by his belief, so he claimed he was part-atheist and partied on. What an inelegant creature.
Now, am I saying it is impossible for a "fully realized atheist' (thanks to Rick Wingrove for FRA), to have an epiphany and return to belief in a god? Nothing is impossible when one abandons reason for "faith'. I find it hard to buy, but I cannot say I know it's not possible. People do strange things. Even atheists.
But, in every case I've
encountered (in 13 yrs as sysop on Compuserve's Religion forum I
discussed this daily with thousands of folks interested in debating the
question of gods for and against), I can honestly say that I have
never met a real atheist (FRA) who abandoned his or her atheism to
return to a religion. I imagine they must exist, somewhere over the
There are many very sincere questioners. Some folks are quite torn up about it, so unsure are they that it becomes a source of extreme anxiety for them. Many were terrified of atheism thinking that if they admitted they didn't believe, even admitted they doubted, they'd suddenly turn into serial killers. They hadn't figured out that ethics and morality are already here" and if there was no god, then clearly you didn't need one to tell you how to behave. When one stops believing, one realizes that instead of an emptiness, a feeling of something missing, they discover a fantastic sense of calm, like stepping out of a stuffy bar into a beautiful spring day. It feels like the cage is gone, the blinders are gone. Instead, though, we find that people don't like atheism. It scares them, because it challenges what they have been told is their core reason for being. So, they heap all sorts of negative traits onto atheism.
It's important to challenge this perspective, to change the way atheists are viewed. Most atheists, just like most theists, are good people. We need to make sure the world knows that.