"The
one complete work of Kierkegaard that had been translated into Hebrew,
and which Morde had read, was his eulogy on Abraham, entitled à ??Fear and
Trembling'. In it Kierkegaard reflects on Abraham's call to go and
sacrifice his son Isaac. How can this be right, when it seems to be a
betrayal of his family, and is contrary to his reason and even to his
conscience? Yet Abraham knows that this is what he has been called to
by God, and so he sets out upon his task, albeit with à ??fear and
trembling'.
"Morde would make his own leap of faith. He would come to the front of St John's church and say out loud à ??Now I give myself to God. Now I do what I must do.' True to the Kierkegaardian spirit, Morde made his decision alone.
"It has been extraordinary to read and hear some of the things people have said about Morde à ?? that he was a à ??professional spy', a à ??trained terrorist', a à ??brilliant con-man'. How much time did such people spend actually trying to get to know the guy? à ??For God's sake' I feel like shouting à ??this man is my friend. You obviously don't know him at all.'
"As clever as Morde was (and is) at an academic level, when it came to the subtle art of spying, Morde was downright naive! I'll never forget the incident at the airport where Morde misplaced the bag with the entire collection of Dimona photos! Where had he put it? It was found at the top of the escalators, where he had left it when he went to check in! Not exactly the behavior of a professional secret agent.
"The
naivetà © was evident too in the matter of the money he was supposed to
be paid. "They say they are going to pay me something for the photos"
he told me one Sunday morning. He added "I will give the money to the
church here and it will help in the ministry."
On 27th February 1987, Vanunu wrote from solitary:
"Now I know that my task in this world is to devote myself for working and helping other people, and my task here in Israel is to show that I was born Jewish but I find that JC is our savior. This will not make my life easy here but this faith will keep me strong and make my suffering bearable.
"Yet I am not allowed to see a priest. They cannot succeed to take from me one of the most important human rights in a democratic country. I wrote a letter to the Bishop Samir Kafity (Anglican Bishop of Jerusalem) and I asked him to send me one of the priests.
"Next week is the trial. I am not worried or afraid because I know what I did and I know who I am. I believe that what happens to me is God's will, and I will wait for my release.
"I don't know a lot about what is going on outside the prison because they keep me isolated. Even my lawyer I see only one time a week, and my brothers every two weeks for one half hour. My parents came to see me one time; they didn't like my faith. I think someone sent them to me because I know my parents. I am a Christian; they will not come to see me again. I have sorrow for them, but as Jesus said, who wants me must leave his parents and follow me. My brothers are not concerned about my faith. Everyone wants to know why I became a Christian and I send them to learn of Kierkegaard's philosophy. There I find love and Jesus, and everyone has to open his heart to find this love, and then Jesus will be wherever we might be."
On 5 June 1987, Vanunu wrote:
"I am spending 24 hours every day alone in a cell reading the Bible and other books. Praying every morning and evening, and trying to know more of God's words. Here I am alone in my faith but by reading the New Testament I feel encouraged, and it gives me strength. The life of the Lord JC is the way I am following, and his words to the Jews are what I can say to the Jews here today.
"I feel that the spirit of God is with me all the time, and now here he keeps me alive and gives me the power to stand in this country, and to say the Lord JC is the truth."
On November 27, 1987, Vanunu wrote:
"But now I know that all that they want is to break my faith, my soul, to separate me from my brothers in Christ. So I have to be more concerned about what they are doing. And be stronger in my faith and keep my faith deep in my heart with me here in my small cell.
"God called me to know him and to be his servant and I accept his mission. All what I have done is from my conscience.
"Morde would make his own leap of faith. He would come to the front of St John's church and say out loud à ??Now I give myself to God. Now I do what I must do.' True to the Kierkegaardian spirit, Morde made his decision alone.
"It has been extraordinary to read and hear some of the things people have said about Morde à ?? that he was a à ??professional spy', a à ??trained terrorist', a à ??brilliant con-man'. How much time did such people spend actually trying to get to know the guy? à ??For God's sake' I feel like shouting à ??this man is my friend. You obviously don't know him at all.'
"As clever as Morde was (and is) at an academic level, when it came to the subtle art of spying, Morde was downright naive! I'll never forget the incident at the airport where Morde misplaced the bag with the entire collection of Dimona photos! Where had he put it? It was found at the top of the escalators, where he had left it when he went to check in! Not exactly the behavior of a professional secret agent.
On 27th February 1987, Vanunu wrote from solitary:
"Now I know that my task in this world is to devote myself for working and helping other people, and my task here in Israel is to show that I was born Jewish but I find that JC is our savior. This will not make my life easy here but this faith will keep me strong and make my suffering bearable.
"Yet I am not allowed to see a priest. They cannot succeed to take from me one of the most important human rights in a democratic country. I wrote a letter to the Bishop Samir Kafity (Anglican Bishop of Jerusalem) and I asked him to send me one of the priests.
"Next week is the trial. I am not worried or afraid because I know what I did and I know who I am. I believe that what happens to me is God's will, and I will wait for my release.
"I don't know a lot about what is going on outside the prison because they keep me isolated. Even my lawyer I see only one time a week, and my brothers every two weeks for one half hour. My parents came to see me one time; they didn't like my faith. I think someone sent them to me because I know my parents. I am a Christian; they will not come to see me again. I have sorrow for them, but as Jesus said, who wants me must leave his parents and follow me. My brothers are not concerned about my faith. Everyone wants to know why I became a Christian and I send them to learn of Kierkegaard's philosophy. There I find love and Jesus, and everyone has to open his heart to find this love, and then Jesus will be wherever we might be."
On 5 June 1987, Vanunu wrote:
"I am spending 24 hours every day alone in a cell reading the Bible and other books. Praying every morning and evening, and trying to know more of God's words. Here I am alone in my faith but by reading the New Testament I feel encouraged, and it gives me strength. The life of the Lord JC is the way I am following, and his words to the Jews are what I can say to the Jews here today.
"I feel that the spirit of God is with me all the time, and now here he keeps me alive and gives me the power to stand in this country, and to say the Lord JC is the truth."
On November 27, 1987, Vanunu wrote:
"But now I know that all that they want is to break my faith, my soul, to separate me from my brothers in Christ. So I have to be more concerned about what they are doing. And be stronger in my faith and keep my faith deep in my heart with me here in my small cell.
"God called me to know him and to be his servant and I accept his mission. All what I have done is from my conscience.
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