by Allen Roland
The transcendent moment
of surrender is a conscious act of letting go ~
that is, letting go of all fear, self-consciousness and
self awareness.
It
is the ultimate high but most people are terrified of
this moment ~ when you momentarily escape the prison of
ego consciousness and enter the world of total freedom
and authenticity.
Musicians and actors strive for that moment ~ that
moment when they become one with the song that they are
singing or the character that they are playing.
I
have experienced this moment as a singer and actor but I
witnessed two excellent examples this past week;
Diana Krall in concert in Sonoma when she touched that
moment playing and singing "
Little Girl Blue
" . From Paul Clayborne's
first base notes I know this was a ' happening ' and by
the time she finished it ~ tears were streaming down my
cheeks.
Diana knew it also and after the last note she paused
and slowly murmured " That's a great song ". She had
become one with the song.
Renee Zellweger reached it in
Cinderella Man
when she was listening to the radio describe the beating
her husband Jim Braddock was taking from Max Baer ~ her
whole body shook and at that moment she truly became Mae
Braddock and lost herself in the process.
You
can also reach it by falling in love but this takes
great courage and the willingness to face the
fear that the " real and authentic you ' will be
loved . However, fully opening your heart is the
shortest path to soul consciousness ~ for in fully
opening my heart I am finally fully embracing myself.
I
remember doing that very same thing about five years ago
when I realized that a precognitive event that I had
dreamed of with someone I deeply loved was happening
before my very eyes ~ while I was on the phone with her.
I
knew something
bigger than me was happening and I totally surrendered
to it and told her as it was happening. She felt it also
but quickly got off the phone.
I
stayed in that heart place embracing the awe and wonder
of it and knew I was embracing a tender and fragile me
who longed to feel this deeply.
The
next day when we got together ~ she completely
denied the incident but it didn't matter ~ I had made a
shift in consciousness and was seeing herself and our
relationship through more clearer eyes.
In other words,
It was the ultimate yes
to myself and , in so doing, I was now in sync with
a universal loving plan that had always been saying yes
to me.
Shortly after that
while singing at a wedding ~ I realized I had gone
beyond self consciousness and was truly singing from my
heart.
That had a profound
effect on writing my book Radical Therapy and also in my
work as a psychotherapist ~ but it also marked the
moment in my life when I could say the same words that
Jesus, Mohammad and Buddha said and know inside what
they truly meant ~ " I am
" which really means I am one with source.
For that moment of
surrender had brought me back to source and I seized it
and still have not let go of it ~
for source is the Unified
Field of soul consciousness which lies not only beyond
time and space but also deepest within each one of us.
The last step of Ego
death is surrender but it is the step that the ego
battles with great intensity ~
for the ego was
created by the left brain to protect us from psychic
pain and to seemingly maintain control through fear. In
essence, the ego is afraid of love for it can't control
it.
However, once we
surrender to love we engage a force that is far greater
than the ego and
its defenses and once we conquer fear ~
we have set the stage to
embrace our authentic self and our innate joyful connection
to source and the Unified field.
The journey of the
heart is through doors of fear but how reassuring it is
to know that the last door is surrender and
beyond that door is our
authentic self and connection to source.
We cannot escape our
destiny and it is divine.
ONLY LOVE HEALS
Allen L Roland
Allen L Roland
is a practicing psychotherapist,
author and
lecturer who
also shares a daily political and social
commentary on his weblog and website
www.allenroland.com He
also guest hosts a monthly national
radio show TRUTHTALK on
Conscious talk
radio www.conscioustalk.net
