I just finished Paul Rogat Loeb 's "Soul of a Citizen: Living with Conviction in a Cynical Time ". It lays out the choice that each of us faces. We can buy into the overriding cynicism of our time, which allows us to emotionally disengage and which ultimately reinforces our feelings of powerlessness. "The problems are too overwhelming", "they 're all crooks anyway", "what can I do?", "I 'm just one person", etc. etc. etc. There are many convincing arguments for inaction and apathy. Or, we can engage despite the magnitude of the problems and the fact that the struggle could (and probably will) outlast all of us. Anyone expecting a sprint, rather than a grueling marathon, is in for a very unpleasant surprise.
But, I digress. Back to what it takes to be an activist. Since I saw "Invisible Ballots: A Temptation for Electronic Vote Fraud " this summer, the documentary itself has become the focus of my campaign for election reform. There was almost nothing in the film that I wasn 't familiar with. Yet, it made a very powerful impression on me. It showed, dispassionately and in a non-partisan manner, why electronic voting is not a good idea. Bingo! I decided to use it as a tool to bring about a national conversation on election issues, particularly electronic voting. I bought three copies of the DVD and launched my free, lending library. Exactly four months later, more than 130 group/individual 'borrowers ' from 27 states, Washington DC, Canada and Japan have participated in my project. Three articles/reviews have appeared so far; more are in the pipeline.
I say "my " project because this has essentially been a one-woman operation. It is I who spent countless hours trolling for contacts, reading articles, writing the authors, sending out DVDs, soliciting articles, reviews and group showings.
But, it has hardly been a solitary effort. A number of people supply contacts and articles, run and update the blog (www.CountEveryVote.Blogspot.com), drop off mailers and money for postage, meet with public officials, edit my words and help me fine-tune my techniques.
My new cyber-community is something very special. Through my work, I have built curiously satisfying relationships with people that I will never meet. An exception: This morning, I went to hear Robert Koehler speak at the 3rd Unitarian Church. Afterwards, I introduced myself and we chatted. The truth of the matter is that we have been e-pen pals for a number of months. He has a copy of "Invisible Ballots " (#20) and I now post his pieces on Op Ed News. Today, we met for the first time, but our relationship was already fully formed.
One writer from the West Coast brought me to tears when he shared his despair about the future of our country. His letter was very personal and heartfelt and it really shook me up. It took me quite a while before I was able to pull myself together and write him back. We now exchange book recommendations and child-rearing tips but we shared a moment of exquisite intimacy that is unique and different from many of my day-to-day relationships.
I didn 't get involved for this 'high ' but now I think I 'm addicted to it. How else can you explain the many late nights when I am literally falling off my feet and there I am pounding out a reply to someone I wouldn 't recognize if I bumped into him on the street? There is something a bit mystical about this method of communication that transcends time and place and the physical realm. It 's like when my daughter calls and wants to talk to the dog. Emma hears her voice, recognizes it, and then looks at me as if to say "I know that 's her, but what the heck is she doing in there? " I feel a similar appreciation for the possibilities that the internet provides, even if I have absolutely no technical understanding of how it works.
I have many ideas I am excited about implementing as an editor for Op Ed News. Obviously, voting issues are a top priority. The "voting activist DVD giveaway " is already in full swing. The caliber of the contestants is impressive. A few copies of "Invisible Ballots " remain. If you are a voting activist, drop Rob an email (firstname.lastname@example.org) and tell us what you 've been doing and what your plans are for the DVD. We will send the remaining copies out until we don 't have any more. Then, I will go back to my lending library, where any individual interested in seeing "Invisible Ballots " can contact me to borrow one.
I also plan a "Local Heroes " corner with bios of activists who are making a difference in their communities. You can write me about yourself or someone whose efforts touched you. As you may gather, I am aiming to create a vibrant webpage full of wonderful, every day people who have chosen to "just say no " to cynicism. It 's a powerful notion: that an inspiring story can offset the plethora of depressing news stories out there. Too often, we look at heroes as inaccessible, impossible, almost inhuman figures. The problem is that we admire them but can 't identify with them. That only reinforces our notions of powerlessness.
Reading or hearing about ordinary people doing extraordinary things opens us up to the possibility of our own involvement. We can fight the isolation and apathy around us only when we feel that we are not alone. I now recognize in a more fundamental way that there is no such thing as a "self-made man ". We stand on the backs of those who preceded us and stand shoulder to shoulder with those who share our goals and our passions. We are part of a long chain of human endeavor to make our world a better place to live. We forget this connectedness at our peril.