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My "Legal" Marriage: Now Define Excited

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I should be much more excited than I am. Every person I have told--each colleague, relative, health care provider, acquaintance--has squealed when I mentioned it. Even the e-mail responses squirt joy (OMG!!!!). I'm getting married.


See? The immediate response is a flush of excitement and a quick smile. It's happy news.


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I have tried wording it in a way that I thought would reduce the impact. We are having the long-awaited civil ceremony on the fifteenth anniversary of our rite of holy union. That's turgid enough, eh? No. I used that one on the vice president I report to, who couldn't wait to grin broadly and slap me on the back in response.


I told the assistant director of human resources that my tried-and-true spouse and I would be legalizing our relationship before a judge in August. She went straight for the health forms, assuming I was telling her because we wanted him on my benefits ("That's why most people are doing it," she said over her shoulder while leaning into the filing cabinet). She was all giggly and energetic, breaking out a smile that rarely gets worn. Yes, far more excited, even if it's only for the bennies (for the record, it's not).

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At 50 years old, 33 state senators have changed the rules on me. They rewrote the definition of marriage to include me. So, I'm getting married. And I'm supposed to be thrilled.


I've been open about my sexual orientation since I was 16 years old. I never had to come out because I was never in. I get that attitude from my parents. They always taught us by example, encouraging us to try things and find who we are by doing. I found out I was attracted to men. Along the way, I learned to be accepting of myself and others from how my parents treated everyone equally. That was a big deal for a young Republican couple in the Upper South in the 1960's and 70's.   Maybe it still is.


I also accepted that the world did not include me in the definition of marriage. That was okay. Being gay meant you don't get married. No one told my stepfather, a good old boy, former cop, and Pacific War veteran from West Virginia. When, at the age of 29, I split up with my first partner after almost 12 years, my stepdad asked my mother if that was the first divorce in her family. These days he's fighting cancer for a third time to prevent my mother from being a widow for a second time. That's what marriage is about when you get down to it. It isn't exciting. It's hard work.

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By and large, being gay hasn't been a challenge. I can count the bumps in the road on one hand. A Yale undergrad from my first summer in China "outed" me to another Yale undergrad in the group the second summer, which saved time waiting for everyone to figure it out again. Someone in my law firm eight years later thought it necessary to tell me that I was the "out" lawyer at the firm, one week after I added ACT UP to our client list so I could defend a couple of friends who had been arrested for disorderly conduct. Another seven years later, the Saudi businessman who hired me to run his school in the Kingdom sat me down my second day on the job to tell me he had heard I was gay; he just wanted to make sure I knew he knew.


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Bear Kosik's evaluation of the state of democracy in the USA, Restoring the Republic: A New Social Contract for We the People, was published on March 30, 2016. His novels, novella, and full-length plays are available on Amazon and Smashwords. (more...)

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