This is a collection of some 'Awakening Moments' which I can recall which have and continue to shape the person which I am today. They may not be in order and many are simply life experiences but since everyone awakens differently, this is mine and I share it freely.
I have never felt comfortable within my experience of life as a whole. From early on I questioned too much (as if that were possible) but did so without thought. I was bored throughout school and, looking back, invited trouble from authoritative figures.
A line from a 1992 movie called Sneakers stuck with me over time - "Too many secrets".
The years flashed by and experiences and programming happened and I thought that if I could get that 'job', that things would turn around and work out. That illusion faded as my years and experiences grew.
I guess the simplest way to state it would be that, I woke up one day and thought: "There has to be more to life than the quest for cash".
I was starting to realize that life seemed to be a quest - not one of those noble, honorable quests - to get money from one pocket to put into mine. Is this really the way I wanted to be?
So I did what any 30 year old fed up with the 'quest for cash' does; Googles "volunteering overseas". After a year of waiting and interviewing / training (being told I was a fool) and 7 weeks after 9/11, I was off to Namibia in southern Africa for 2 years.
Maybe I was shielded from the propaganda storm which followed 9/11 by being removed from the incident both physically and mentally. I did not experience the media except for the odd clip here and there as this was another life, filled with glorious adventure and cultures to explore. Many other volunteers were also there which gave me the opportunity to get to know other western peoples as well. Some were idealists, some looking to enhance their resumes and everyone had a grand time.