However, I never told one part of the story to anyone -- until now- which is perhaps the real reason that I am "going public". I had one more opportunity to catch the guy and I let it pass.
When the police were at our house that night, they got a
call that a man had approached a taxi driver wanting to cash in a bunch of
change and one dollar bills. Could it
possibly be the same man that attacked me? They knew he had my tip money. Deep down I knew it was him. I had this feeling in the pit of my stomach. But I hesitated and said I wasn't sure. I froze. I think I was just glad it was all over and
that I hadn't been raped. I had beaten
the guy off and all he got was some loose change and a bunch of dollar bills.
Everything could just go back to the way it was. So, they didn't pick him up and that was that.
They never caught my attacker.
Even though this has always nagged at me, it was due to my own personal disappointment and shame that I possibly let him get away. Given the recent news about the Jaycee Lee Duggar kidnapping, and the fact that the perpetrator escaped prosecution of a previous rape because his 14-year old victim refused to testify, I now realize my attacker also may have gone on to hurt other women. He may have even used a loaded gun the next time -- if there was a next time. I never thought of that before.
My motto used to be: "Don't go down without a fight". Now I add, "and finish the job when you have the chance".
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