OpEdNews - Diary: I Love To Be Loved

Since I came to my sense I have been trying to be loved by the whole world. But the more I try to get love the more I get the hate. Still I love the hate as I want to be loved by hate.

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I have made myself as joker just for getting the love and attention. During last few years I have invented many methods for getting attention as I have been trying to give a certain message to the whole world. Actually I consider that I am the smallest creature of my Allah Almighty. I do not know why I have been sensing that my Allah has been using me for a good cause. It is because of this feeling that I am still alive. I have spent last few years in great danger. Several times I have just felt that now this is my last time. I have survived so many suicide attacks. So many times I have trapped in the cross-firing of terrorists and security forces. One day I along with my wife and my children were standing on the debris of my home. That was the time when I have been losing the hope.

I have come to Peshawar from Bajaur Agency with the hope that my friends will hear my cries and will prevail on the government of Pakistan to stop fighting. I have lost many friends in this mad war, but still I have continued the writing. I have used my blood for writing articles and diaries in OpEdnews.com and many other news sites. I have also used the social networking sites for reaching to the people. I cannot judge whether I have done something good or I just acted like a stupid man.

Actually this is my desire to write a book. I am also the citizen of Pakistan and in this book I shall try to show to the world that how terrorism continued affecting my life. There will be no denying the fact that terrorists have been ruling Pakistan since its creation. This is the country where everyone has been living in terror. This is my desire to control the menace of terrorism in Pakistan once for all. At the moment we are weak and terrorists are in power. Still we have been accepting the order of terrorists.

Actually I have been trying since long to remove the impression that Americans and Pakistanis cannot become true and good friends. Both Americans and Pakistanis are friends. Yes, this is the fact that rulers are terrorists.

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