There was time when I was very excited after my contacts with the United States. I was sure that I shall get the help from somewhere as now I have been speaking with the people world over. Every morning I wake up with the hope that I shall find some ways to save myself and my family. But every morning I get the news that terrorists again killed someone.
Today when I made a phone call to my wife, who is in Bajaur Agency she told me that terrorists have killed a woman and some children. At the moment I am in Peshawar some 200 kilometers aways from Bajaur Agency.
The news of killing has increased my depression as at the moment my whole family is living in terror and fear. Last night I have made an idea that I shall write a detail story for OpedNews.com. But the news of death has shattered my idea.
The aim of this diary is to get your sympathy and consolling. Please give me a few minutes and advise me what should I do for keeping myself composed and alive. I am really in need of your help. I am really collapsing. If someone has the time please hold me.