The news which I received after my return to Peshawar has shattered my hopes and I remained in depression for three days. I am still in depression. The management of Statesman newspaper being published from Peshawar has ordered my dismissal from the job without giving me any reason. In the newspaper I was working as sub-editor-cum-reporter.
Like a big terrorists the management of Statesman newspaper stopped me at the gate on the gunpoint. Niether they gave me any reason for my abrubt dismissal. The dismissal upset me greatly and I remained in severe depression and pain. So far I have been avoiding to inform Fatima about this new development. Actually she does not that I may lose the job at this point. She wants that I may play an active role.
I am writing this diary just to inform you about my condition. This is the place where I always got love and kindness. This time also I will get the love and good wishes. I am grateful to Mr. Rob Kall and my dearest friend Jan. I know this is not the place to discuss our own problems, but still I have no other place where at least I can open my heart. This is the place where I can open my heart. Please forgive me if I am doing anything wrong. You are great people and great people always forgive. If possible write a few words for my consoling. May God the Great give you all the happiness in this life and in the life hereafter if there is any. Good Luck.